Yesterday, the girls and I stayed home and took a mental health day. The girls decided to do manicures and pedicures courtesy of Naomi. Pictures to follow soon. All our nails were colorful and stylish. Then Naomi wanted to do a makeover on herself so she borrowed some of my makeup. Hmm, we learned that if you are blind in one eye it is hard to put eyeshadow on your good eye when you close it. :o) Afterwards Naomi informed me that she does not want toys anymore for birthday and Christmas, all she wants is makeup. Arghh, my little girl is growing up way too fast!!!!
I got a call from the Zoo today during one of my classes and they offered me the job. I am so excited!!! I can't wait for this summer to start now. I have a mandatory meeting on May 25th and the first day I can start working is June 1st. I will have to wait until the following week since I will be giving final exams that week. They are sending me my welcome email next Monday so I will know more about my job then. This is going to be fun. My students have already asked if I can get them in free to the Zoo. :o)
You never know how many friends you truly have until a crisis happens. I truly did not realize I had so many friends here in Texas. I have had so many people offer to help once they heard about David's condition. I am truly thankful for everyone who has called and offered help and showed concern for David and I. It is such a comfort to me to know that I have so many people willing to help me right now. One question that has been repeated by so many has been, "How can I help?" I don't know if it is my pride or feeling that I am being selfish or greedy or me thinking that my problem is not that serious to ask for others help. So I usually don't tell people what I need. But since many have asked, here are some things that have gone through my mind: 1. The occasional dinner meal. (I only have 1 day left in my sick bank so I can't take time off work right now. After working all day long, coming home and having to make dinner is the last thing I want to do. And yet I feel petty saying this because there are so many single moms out there that do this every day on a regular basis.) 2. Someone to drive with me when I go see David. (I feel selfish mentioning this one too. But after a visit with him, I am so drained all I want to do is cry.) 3. Time for myself. (Visiting David and taking care of the girls gets so draining that I really need some time to myself that I can just veg and escape reality even for a few minutes.) 4. Oh yes, and help with the girls. (I really don't need to mention this one because I have already had so many people offer to watch the girls.)
Last week was a very emotionally challenging week. The medication adjustments that David's doctor tried last week did not work fast enough so on Friday I had to have him admitted to the hospital again. Because I knew he would not go willingly to the hospital this time, I had to go downtown and fill out paperwork to get the court involved and have deputies pick him up and transport him to the hospital. That truly was one of the hardest things I had to do. However, it was necessary because he needs to be in the hospital so that he can get well again. I hope once the medication starts working he will realize why he is back in the hospital.
I would love to say that David's bipolar is doing better. However, the medicine the Dr. prescribed in the hospital is not working. David is in full blown mania again and it is looking very likely that I will have to him admitted to a psych hospital again. His mania this time is much worse. He cycles between being very angry and aggressive to just having lots of energy and feeling like he is on top of the world. I am very concerned for David and have been praying for him constantly. I would appreciate all the prayers that I can get at this time for David. I hope the medicine change that his Dr. did will kick in soon but I am not seeing any signs of it yet. I know the Lord is with David and I right now. I have already seen him answer one of my prayers and know that he will continue too.
On Friday night, I had it all planned. David wanted to go to the Men's Basketball game at the church and I had a scrapbooking crop that I wanted to go to. I realized that we both needed a break so I lined up a babysitter for Friday night. Since we only have 1 car, I arranged for Jenny to drive us to the crop so David could have the car. I packed up all of my scrapbooking stuff (which is a lot might I add) and Jennny and I headed to the crop. We were almost to the place where the crop was being held when I got a call on my cell phone. It was the babysitter. Naomi was throwing up. Bummer, there went my scrapbooking plans. Jenny and I had to turn around and go back home. I was so disappointed. I have not done scrapbooking in so long and I was looking forward to working on some projects. Oh well, maybe next time.
In February, I applied for a summer job at the zoo to be a Zoo Camp instructor. Yesterday, I got an email saying that I made it to the interview stage. I am really excited. I am crossing my fingers that the interview goes well. It is a group interview so I hope I can really shine compared to everyone else in the group. I don't usually like to work during the summer because that is my time to spend with the girls. However, when I saw this job opening at the zoo I just could not resist. I think this would be a totally cool job doing something that I love!!! Here's hoping!!!